Wednesday, September 14, 2011

just keep it under 50

I've been stressing lately.

The reasons are deeply personal, and I'm really not going to share.  ever.

Part of my problem is just a time management issue.  Part of it is a pain management issue.

So what do I do?  Well.  I run.  I run when I'm stressed.  I run when I'm in pain.  I sleep less, wake earlier, and run.  I run at night when my family is in bed, slipping out here and there for a 30 minute run when no one is looking, and everyone is tucked away for the night.

And last week I ran 6 days, and 49.something miles.  just trying to keep it under 50...
And the week before I ran 6 days and 49.something miles.  just trying to keep it under 50...
And if I don't tone it down, this week I'm going to run 6 days and...

And while that seems like ~wow~ really awesome, imagine how great and huge my base will be going into the marathon, I realize that if I hurt myself trying to manage my pain, I'm going to be a real f'ing mess.  I will never forgive myself during the process of healing.  And let's not consider how much *crazy* I don't have time for right now.

So today I will rest.  I will Rest and Write and do Statistics and read MicroBiology and probably do more math.  I will be thankful that I have such good friends who are able to listen to me when I need listening too.  I will question as to why I have such odd friends who will e-mail me and tell me I look like I'm stressed out. *isn't that like telling someone they look like sh*t?  I will probably harass my besties with 200 unanswered e-mails while I contemplate the title of my new book....

Nursing School and Other Natural Disasters:
Keeping it Under 50 in An Alternate Dimension.

Yeah, well, we've had locusts, earthquakes, hurricanes, flash floods... all in the last 17 or so days... I mean, it just seems too fitting to pass up.

9 comments:

Jenny said...

There are some days when I'm still sore from a previous run, and feel the need to go run anyways. I can totally relate, although I have yet to run 49.something miles in one week! But I look forward to that day when I can!

Anne said...

Hang in there G...and be good to your body. Hugs ((()))

fancy nancy said...

I run too when I'm stressed and life is hurting. I guess I feel like I would rather feel anything else than that! I hope things start to work out for you and your stress begins to fade! I hate when people tell me I look tired or stressed....it is exactly like saying to someone that they look like crap!

James said...

Sorry to hear about your pain troubles, been there done that. Keep up the positive attitude and don't over do it with the runs!

Becca said...

Nursing school sucks. I did it pre-kids and I dind't really work and it was still fricken' hard. And fwiw you could totally have worse ways to manage stress than running! be good to yourself!

Jesser said...

There are definitely different types of pain. I think (hope) I know which ones it's OK to run through and I'm sure you're the same way. Running is totally a magic bullet for my troubles and hard to stay away from though 49 probably be in my future for a little while yet.

Shellyrm ~ just a country runner said...

It would be so nice if we could carry some of the burden for our friends when their loads are weighing them down, since I can't know I'm sending prayers and uplighting thoughts your way. I think you are stronger than you realize...you were strong enough to write this and smart enough to take a day to focus on other things.

Julie D. said...

keep running that stress away, G. There are worse things... Hugs!

Jen said...

{{HUGS}}

Keep it under 50... sweet... it could be just get it in.

Praying for you...