Friday, January 7, 2011

thesaurus.com

‎"A bend in the road is not the end of the road... 
unless you fail to make the turn." 
~Author Unknown

Realized (based on all the responses) that everyone who read yesterdays post is thinking the worst.  Let me use a better word.  Yesterday I told you we had received "startling" news.  Well, I take that back.

Startling was the wrong word.  The correct word was:

alarmingbothersome, depressingdifficult, disconcerting, discouraging, dismaying,disquieting, distressful, distressing, forebodingfrightening, hard, impeding, inconvenient,intrusiveominous, painfulperplexingperturbing, provoking, troublesometroubling, uncertainunpleasantupsettingvexing,wearisome, worrisome, worrying

My child's Dr told us something that was certainly unsettling and may even be life altering, but not the worst.  For all intensive purposes, the child in question is healthy.

I'm just... as a mother... I'm just having to learn a new path.  I once read an article about what it's like to have a child with Down Syndrome (obviously NOT what I'm dealing with).  The mother said it was like planning a trip to Paris and landing in Holland.  At first it's very sad and disappointing, but eventually you come to appreciate the culture, speak the language, the pace of the country, etc.

Well, I'm obviously not visiting Holland, but I feel a bit like I've planned a tropical vacation getaway on a yacht only to land in Alaska for a fishing trip.  It's still a boat trip, and sure -Alaska is beautiful- but fishing is a lot less relaxing, a lot more grueling, and certainly harder than the planned trip*.

Hopefully, this little look the thesaurus will calm some of the concern out there in blog land. I'm fine, thrown, but fine, and so is my kiddo.  Thanks so much for your prayers & comments.  I do appreciate them very, very, much.


~as if any of us really expected parenthood to be as easy as a getaway on a yacht?  I didn't.  I'm not complaining, please don't hear my words as whining.  I'm trying to adjust.~

7 comments:

Julie said...

I hope you'll gain peace over what is going on with dear child. It's never easy, this parenting thing. No one ever adequately explained just how hard it is and how your heart hurts with each of their hurts.

I really liked the down syndrome story. It really explains it well. My nephew has d.s. and although I don't know exactly what his parents go through, I know from my experience as his aunt that it was very much like that story.

bobbi said...

As a mother who has recently accepted the fact that her youngest son is likely on the autism spectrum, this post really resonates with me. I'ts hard, mostly because it's not how we dreamed it would be for him.

Hope things settle down for you...

fancy nancy said...

If only being a parent was a yacht trip! Never took this as whining...just a mom being honest. Sometimes it's summer in Alaska where the sun never sets and sometimes it is Alaska in the winter when the sun only comes up for a short time. You'll get through to summer!!

Heather -Momma Running Amok said...

So Sorry to hear that you received some troublesome news with regards to one of your children. I feel ya on that! I have a non talking 2 year old that is very delayed and when we went for the evaluation with the state I walked out of the meeting in a haze completely shocked. My biggest thing is that I don't want my son to ever feel "lost." Does that make sense? So, now we have 3 different therapists making home visits and we take each day at a time. Hope everything begins to look up! I have been reading your blog for years and wish I lived near you and your running buddy as you guys seem great. Have a wonderful weekend!

MCM Mama said...

Hang in there. Know that there a lot of us out here willing to listen if you ever need it. You know where to find me if you ever need to talk it out in person. {{HUGS}}

Jen said...

I am still praying for you and your child. I like your attitude and keep your chin up.

racing dawn said...

what better place to vent than on your own blog... :) good luck with the changes and hope they're easier than you anticipate!