The longer I'm a stay at home mom the LESS conservative I am becoming. Dunno what that's all about, but I definitely am more liberal today than I was in 2000 when I gave birth to my kiddo.
Is it the fact that I spent 10 years thinking about who I am, where as, ten years ago I just sort of thought I believed what someone, probably on TV, told me I believed? Is it that I'm a runner, which has made me self aware down to every breath I take for a few hours or more of each week? Really, I've changed in many ways. Physically, emotionally, heck- even what I wear has changed!
I used to only wear jeans or pants and wouldn't be caught dead in a skirt unless it came down to my ankles. I have photos of me sitting on a porch in JULY in CHESAPEAKE VA (read that in 'effing HOT weather) in jeans. The people I worked with used to go on these "mini makeover rampages" where they'd stuff me into a dress and drag me off to the church dinner with friends. Usually in a misguided attempt to introduce me to "someone". I don't often relate to teenybopper books, but I can tell you that Stephanie Meyers really nailed Bella on the head. Still, my Bella-esque cringing aside, I now wear a short skirt about 80% of the time, and I am working hard to figure out how to wear one 95% of the time, but there are just times when a running skirt is hard to pull off. Like parent teacher conferences. Unless your kid's teacher is a runner... man wouldn't that be SWEET? ... oh, but we're getting off topic here.
BUT HERE is the REAL thing that is making me WEIRD MYSELF OUT:
I've been thinking about getting some ink. Yea. Um. I've lived my whole life as an anti-tat individual. I swore I would never never get a tat. I mean, you go right ahead with that sh*t, but I'm not into it on me. And yet, for some reason it has been floating around in my head recently. The only thing is, I haven't dreamed one up that is as unique as I am and says what I want it to say... which is "Bad A** Mother" and "Spiritually Enlightened Runner" all at the same time...
Mom, ever insightful, says, "I think without running you would be bored." And my first thought was, "or boring". And maybe that's all this is... an attempt at not being BORED. or BORING.
So, I will wait 365 days, and if I am still thinking about ink, then, I'll do it then.